Keep living, keep writing....

I went out to lunch with my boss the other day and we had a nice discussion about everything - men, marriage, juggling the demands of motherhood, etc. And then she asked me a question I wasn't prepared for...

"So what's new with you? What have you been up to besides work and taking care of your little one?"

Seems like an easy question on the surface, but I struggled to come up with an answer. Why is it I couldn't think of a single thing to tell her? Is that all I do now?

And as I thought about it some more after we got back to the office, I realized I truly have been all work and no play. I wanted to go to the Beyonce concert here in Cleveland a few weeks ago, but didn't. I didn't have the money. I wanted to go to Crocker Park in Westlake, someplace I've never been, but wanted to check out, but I didn't. I didn't have the time.

Sure, I'll chat with my friends and they'll come over and laugh with me, eat some good food, watch a movie or two, play with my daughter. We always have fun. But I feel kind of...in a rut, I suppose.

Especially when it comes to this blog. I'm tired of writing about what I think about the fabulous life of some celebrity or the latest major move someone else has just made. I want to be that fabulous chick who has a new story to tell every day. I don't want to be boring.

So I've made some changes in my life. I promise myself that I will do what makes me happy. Whether that's starting a new hobby, working out more, or becoming a beauty junkie (I'm well on my way :) I want to just enjoy life, not just live it.

Either way, I'm going to keep writing. So I might as well have something interesting to write about, right?

Take care,

Tara

Remember how I said I loved my job....?

Well, I still like it, but I feel like something's missing.

Writing. That's what it is.

Sure, I get to write press releases and short articles for the numerous newsletters we produce, but I yearn to write a well-written, well-researched article with more than two sources that has the ability to affect people. Is that so much to ask?

I love stumbling upon a topic, doing some research, hunting down people to interview, then transcribing the interviews and then sitting down to create a masterpiece. It's fun to me. So while I am doing good work at a place that has a huge impact on the daily lives on Greater Clevelanders, I still feel like a part of who I am is sleeping.

Does anyone get what I mean?

Kimora Lee Simmons lives in the fab lane...

...And I wanna be just like her!

For the past two weekends, I've been glued to my TV at 8 p.m. Sunday watching the Style Network for my new favorite show, Kimora: Life in the fab lane.

I thought I was going to hate it. I thought she was going to be a bossy, manipulative super-diva with no regard for anyone but her fabulous self.

I was wrong. Well, she is bossy. And a diva. But she is so fabulous.

The thing I love most about her? The fact that she does everything with those two little adorable girls by her side. Going over the final version of the KLS Barbie? She asks them for their opinion. Picking out a dress to wear to the Vanity Fair party? She gives the girls the extra fabric from one of her dresses and they parade around, pretending to be extra fierce like their mama.

I used to dislike Kimora because I read once that she had a nanny and she was proud of it. But looking at her life now, it would be almost impossible to do half the things she does now if she didn't have a full-time nanny.

Even with a nanny, she struggles and shows that beneath the fabulous clothes and fabulous cars, and fabulous jewelry, there's a mom who still wants to give her children the best she can.

My favorite moment of the show so far? When her girls made their mom some cake and left it out with a note saying how much they loved her. Kimora had been complaining the whole show how she was on a diet and she was hungry and she had to be a size 2. But when she saw what her kids did for her, she scarfed it down without a second thought. Loved it.

So despite what I previously thought about Kimora, I have to give her props on handling her business. Especially with the babies.

Attitude adjustment

I've been trying to make a lot of changes in my life these past couple months, which primarily includes making a huge effort to be the best wife I can be. (Two months of bliss and counting!) I wanted to fall in love with my husband all over again and doggone it, I think I've done that.

Over the past couple months I've thought to myself, "Did I shortchange myself by getting married so young?" I'm sure countless others would say yes, but for the record, I'll have to say a whole-hearted "No."

There simply are no words to describe our relationship. No words to say how incredible I feel when I'm with him. It feels like God has blessed me, has shown me divine favor. I feel like I'm living a miracle every day.

We just simply "get" each other. We know what to say or what to do and our relationship just works. I know when to hold my tongue, he knows when I need to be left alone, and we just work together as team. I have NEVER been happier.

I used to be annoyed with him on a daily basis. Sure, I loved him to pieces, but the minute he would say something or do something that I didn't agree with, I would let that color my mood and get me angry. Now I don't. I've know now that he loves me no matter what, so if he goes to the store and forgets to buy formula, I don't trip.

It honestly feels so good I just want to shout!! None of my other friends are married, so sometimes I do feel like the old married lady even though I'm the youngest. And I do wish sometimes that one of them would tie the knot, but only because I want to share my feelings with someone who knows where I'm coming from. But I know that for some, the search for a soulmate doesn't end with the first, second, or even third relationship. I want them all to be happy and thrilled with the love they have.

But this feels so good I can't keep it to myself!!